30 Sep She was baby #3, after 13 years and at 40 she was my miracle baby
She was baby #3. After 13 years & at 40. My miracle baby. Easiest of all my pregnancies. I felt flutters at 16 wks & was already really showing. 17 wks 3 days, I woke up & I don’t know I felt different. Then I realized I wasn’t feeling any movement all day. No cramping, no spotting but I knew. We went to the ER. I didn’t look at the monitor but watching her dad & the ultrasound tech, I knew. She was very cold & I hate to think of how many women have suffered this loss & been treated the way she treated us. The nurse who came in to break the news was kind. They wanted me to stay to have ob come figure out what next, I chose to go home and allow nature to take me through the next heart breaking steps. 2 days later on January 12 2016 we said goodbye to her. I’ve never had a vaginal delivery so it was rough & painful. It took over 6 hours. I got to hold her and tell her how loved she was. On December 13th 2016 I gave birth to my rainbow baby Chase, but I’ll always miss my little angel.