01 Oct Sarah’s Story
At our 20-week scan, we thought we’d be finding out if Jack would have a brother or sister. Instead, our world changed forever with the words: “I’m so sorry, I’ve found a heart abnormality.”
Our baby was diagnosed with hypoplastic left heart syndrome. It wasn’t fixable. On 16th February, our journey changed in a way no parent should ever have to face.
Telling Jack that his little brother had died was the hardest part of it all. It broke his heart, and even now he talks about Harry nearly every day. He is my world, and making sure he’s okay has been my only focus.
Because of how far along I was, we had to stop Harry’s heart. We saw his last heartbeats on the monitor, felt his last little kicks… and then had to go home for 2 long days before I could be induced. Those were the worst days of my life — knowing he was still there, but no longer moving. I would have given anything to feel just one more kick.
On 8th March at 3:32pm, Harry was born. We had 24 precious hours with him. We read books, watched Bluey, and I got to cuddle him through a silent but magical night. It wasn’t the life we had dreamed of, but it was time I will cherish forever.
His funeral was beautiful — full of poems, songs, and love. It gave us comfort to be surrounded by people who cared so deeply for our boy.
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