29 Sep Amber’s story
After 2 failed rounds of IUI and an IVF round from hell (everything that could possibly go wrong did), our pregnancy was positive. We had a 7 week scan where we saw her heart beating, I have never seen my wife so happy.
At 11 weeks, late in the night I was shocked awake by the bedroom light, my wife standing by the door, I knew immediately something was wrong. “I think I’m having a miscarriage”.
I’m not going to share the gory details or the fear, or the horror of the early miscarriage unit and everything we went through there that night. Anyone who’s been through it knows how traumatic that experience is. Needless to say, we lost our baby.
I barely remember the next few months, living in a dark cloud of grief. I couldn’t have known that losing a baby could feel like this, even before we even knew her sex or held her in our arms. We gave her the name we had been saving for years and planted a Willow tree in the garden.
Willow will always be our first child and we miss her every day.
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